Monday, August 31, 2009

I thought I would..

For the past few days
I have been receiving soothing msg via internet or blog comments or sms
I am reali touched!
Thanks guyz, thanks so much :)
Didnt know that U guyz would pay such attention towards my little blog :D
& Yes! I am still so strong despite wat had happened previously
It was just a drop of unfavourable colour in a part of my life
It does not matter anyway lolx :P
I thought I would be that sad still..
I thought I would be that disappointed..
I thought I would be that hard to leave..
I thought I would just screw up for the rest of my life!
Who knows.. In actual fact, I feel nothing after drafting out my thoughts
I've done the best tat I could to make this relationship goes as far as it could
No regret for sure :)
I realize it for now..
I was just someone pulling U out from Ur previous unhappy relationship
Like U said.. I gave U the strength to be in love again
Don say tis.. "When I said I Love U, I mean it"
U never truly love me.. I was just a substitute before U met Pinkie again
It is such a strong statement..
When U said U and him will never have an end..
Left me no mercy but to wipe off everything..
How ironic it could be when U thought U r holding a star in ur hand
But it was just a beautiful fantasy & it has never been true
I am glad that I woke myself up with the help from fairies
Especially Elroy, Evon & nevertheless my family :)
Love U all much much much ~ ^^

Its the time to loosen the tight wrapping rope
It has never belong to me anyway
I stop myself from pursuing the big diamond
For it shines on me only once in a blue moon

Saturday, August 29, 2009

Popo, My Grandma

On 24th morning, my Popo admitted to Tong Shin Hospital for her leg surgery
I do not know how to explain it in detail,
The surgery has something to do with her both legs,
Each time she walks, she would feel the pain.
It has been like this for few years & she was kinda stubborn to listen to us back then.
For this surgery, she gotta sell off her farm for only RM 25k,
Balance of the surgery payment comes from my family & my aunt.
My this Popo has a difficult life & she could be so brave & raise all her children by herself.
Wait a min, not exactly all her children.
I have 2 Uncles, 4 Aunts & also my mama.
My grandpa passed away kinda early when I was only 2/3 years old.
Didnt get a chance to reali look at his face.
He wasnt a good father though, he loved gambling until my Popo gotta help him to pay his debts.
My point here is.. I should have another youngest aunt,
She was given away to a far relative.
After his death, Popo lived her life miserably,
Earning money by plantation & my Mama stopped schooling & helped out in family since young.
Poor Popo.. U deserve something better in ur life.
At least U have us to take good care of U.She seems bored since living with us in KL.
I am so sorry Popo.. I don have much time to spend at home.
& I was sick few days back.. Couldnt visit U earlier in hospital.
If I were to give U all the money in the world,
If I were to give U all the best TV channels in the world,
If I were to give U the best OSIM massage device,
If I could.. I would give U the world.
U wouldnt be satisfied, I know.
All U need is just someone to talk to U..
Popo, I will spend more time with U alright.
Hold on there.. & pls get well soon :)

After this she is going for some therapy,
hopefully she will discharge from the hospital soon.
Love U, Popo.

Monday, August 24, 2009

Dear Bii..

Its been 3 months..

Here I am to announce.. We broke up for 3 months

I still remember.. I can still recall..

Ur flight departed KUL to CDG at nite..

& I was with Evon crying myself like a kid..

How upset was I that time seeing U left me on April 13th..

We celebrated Ur birthday on 12th April & I hope it was meaningful to U..

I was very happy to know that I am the 1st bf who celebrated Ur birthday..

U know wat am I doing now? I'm actually drinking Cognac (Brandy) + Pepsi

& Yes.. I am kinda drunk..

Wat happened actually..? Y would u change all of a sudden?

The day when I was in Jakarta, U called me & it was still all fine & lovely

After that.. U got to online & U changed so mucj...

U started to show Ur attitude.. As if I am nobody to U..

But I want to thank U.. for asking me "there?" when I was away from my laptop

When I was back.. I was shocked U know..

We carried on with ur conversation..

But I just couldn't take it.. Y would U change so much for just that 2 weeks..

Whatever I asked seem to be a stupid question..

Bii.. U know I just wanted to know more bout Ur environment in Nice..

I concerned bout U.. & all that U did.. was puoring me with such a big bale of cold water..

I might not be as experience in love as the others but I somehow felt..

U just didnt want to continue tis relationship..

It was my 1st time asking for a break up..

U know.. I never ever wanted to end tis relationship.. Never..

If I wanted to break up with U intentionally..

I could have done tis when that Axcest thingy occured..

I could have end it.. When U yelled at me.. Shouted at me..

Telling me that U wanted to stay single.. Don hope to have a relationship during Ur exam..

Arguements.. Even pushed me down from the staircase..

Broke Ur self-promise that U never ever kick anyone but kicked me at my butt..

I gave U chances & chances..

Wat happened in the end?

U could just went to LHR.. to meet Pinkie Ur ex bf & lied to me..

It was 3 months ago 22nd of May 2009..

Can I assume that U was afraid that I would be angry?

& that was the reason U lied to me?

Bii.. I don need tis.. Tat was very cruel..

Especially when U could ignore my text sms.. & even FB msg..

U kept saying that I was forcing U too much

Come on! Everyone here in Malaysia can witness how patient I was..

To wait for Ur phone call & sms..

At tis very moment.. U R definitely out of excuses..

U should know better than anyone.. U R actually the one wanted to end our relationship..

That once used to be so so so so so so close to us.. & U just ended it with Ur ridiculous egoness..

So what U R in France rite now pursuing Ur studies in Engineering Course?

Dare U forgot I am the one who helped U to come out with fake medical report..

I was the one talking to Dr.Lye not to fill in that particluar part..

U had 14 days break b4 U went to France..

& U spent 10 nites with me..

I cant believe that U R doing tis to me..

Telling me all the promises & eventually.. Only shit happened to me..

It was 2 months plus U was in France b4 we broke up..

How many times U called me? Only 3 times..

Wat was all that about? & U could still blame that I was pushing U..

U took me for granted.. Reali U did..

Whom should I blame? U? No.. I don think so..

Instead I blame myself.. For trusting U too much..

It has been 3 months.. & I still think of U everyday..

I miss the time we drink together..

I miss the moment I hug U to sleep.. I told U I didnt even hug my 1st ex to sleep..

I miss our conversation when I told U wat happened to my day..

& U could just reply "So?" that cold..

Do I hate U? Of course I do!

I hate U when I was driving all U d0 was to listening to Ur mp3...

I hate U when U start showing Ur attitude..

I hate U when U chewed the Digi sim card & puked it to the toilet..

I hate U when U R saying that I am not strong when I kena taruh from senior/leading..

I hate U when U R saying that U would call me everyday even U R in France..

I hate U when U R saying that I should wait for U to come back to Malaysia b4 I continue my Degree Couse..

I hate U when U R saying that I am the most special bf U ever had..

I hate U for giving me so much hope that I thought we could be together 4ever..

I hate U for saying that that U wan a steady bf who is me..

I hate U for staying that we have gone thru a lot..

I hate U for so many things.. I hate U so so much..

& the last thing I hate bout U..

is that I cant even hate U..

Its been 3 months.. & I still love U..

Evon, Elroy.. Pls don scold me after reading tis post..

I am just drunk & emo..

I can do tis.. I will forget bout Bii & continue with my current life..

I was thinking.. I gave Bii 3 months probation periods b4 starting our realionship..

& I should also give Bii 3 months period to think bout me b4 ending it..

Apparently.. I am nothing to Bii.. I am just no one..

Its alright.. I have my own life..

Can I say tis again?

I might have feeling towards U..

Not strong enough to want U back..

But sufficient enough to make my heart pain..

I am Crason! I will never give up revolving my life!

Let tis drunken nite ends here..

Wishe me luck & all the best!

p/s: Once U R my Bii.. 4ever U will be.. I miss U still.. & I love U still..

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Kuwait 7 Days Trip

Remarkable Trip of this year 2009
13th - 19th August Kuwait 7 Days Trip
Initially I was supposed to do DEL flight
Due to some reasons, I was being removed from the flight & become Standby crew
I was thinking to get myself a new hp though
No DEL flight = Allowance gone! I couldnt take it & I cried abit
Who knows?! Lost is not exactly a Loss!
I got this Kuwait flight in return!
Allowance is better than DEL lolx :P
So this is Kuwait flag
Not fascinating enough lolx
Let me tell abit of Kuwait
Kuwait Capity City is Kuwait City (any difference?)
Their ppl R Kuwaiti
Using Kuwait Dinar, 1 Dinar = MYR 13.00
...... I am Broke!
Speaking Arabic language
Basically it is a desert place, for sure super HOT!All Kuwait Vehicles must have this "TradeMark"
KUWAIT tis word must not be omitted
Welcome to Kuwait City
Tall buildings R everywhere
Colourful & styled by its Local CultureDo U reali need that much of Satellite Pan?
Too much la.. How many channels U have?She is one of my Leading in this flight
LSS Shanti
She belanja me breakfast
Puree~ One kind of Indian Foods
Superb Delicious^^This is the Beach at the back of the Hotel we R staying
Walking distance
Notice something special?
It has no cloud!I sweat like no body business
Seriously I am obsessed by its Clean & Clear Blue Sky
Very very much indeed!During my stay in Kuwait
SandStorm could just attack us out of nowhere
Dust is everywhere & it hurts my eyes!Regret tat I did not bring along my shade
Wat to do? Just stuff myself in the hotel roomEveryone asks me
Isnt it a basin? for hand washing?
No No.. It is not!
I am just curious.. Y do U need 2 toilet bowls?Better to utilize it than to waste it
Hehe.. Smoking goes well while U R doing business
Agree? hahha! U may find this in Kuwait
Marlboro GOLD
It looks so Grand, fucking PRO FRESH it says
Btw, it is tasteless =.="
Anyway compared to KL, it is cheaper in Kuwait
KD 0.500 which is 500 Fils = MYR 6.50Time to hang out with my set of crew
Camwhore a bit^^This is the water supply machine
Surprisingly it supplies Cold Water for Free!!
Take a look at it.. kinda disgusting isnt it?
I have no choice!
Even water is expensive in Kuwait =.="It is so dusty.. Isssh!!LSS Shanti, LSS Azma, FSS NurulFSS LindaPeace Peace^^Along the street
U may always find all these Mosques every where
It is a muslim country anyway lolxHere I am in Mubaraki (I don know the exact spelling)
It is like our Chow Kit that kind of street
U may see lots of Indian & other races
Egyptian, Lebanese, Pinoy & so onCan U see that?
They look at me like one kind =.="
Excusez moi.. its my 1st time in Kuwait ok!All the Mr. Jubah walking around
Pak Arab~ Pak Arab~This is the Signature Tower of Kuwait
Kuwait Tower it is :)
U would see more of its pic at the bottomThis view caught my attention
It is another Kuwait Tower
Telecommunication TowerAvenue Shopping Mall
It is most likely Kuwait Midvalley
Grand & Huge!I like the feeling
We R Family~ Everyone sayang me so much :)& Now we R in another shopping mall on this streetSour Sharq
It has got a beautiful view out there!As U can see.. Sunset is coming!Breathtaking I would say
Never failed to stand there watching it for few secondsNot on 2nd thought
All of us went for this boat sailing
It is not reali cheap
2 KD.. which is MYR 26
For the sake of trying, just do it man!It gets so dark all of a sudden
Brilliant View :)I took this pic
Isnt it good?
Nope? Check out the below pic!Look at my background..
+.+" who took it?!
Now U R gonna say I am good in taking pic!The reading is 7:28PM
Cute!!!Even the ceiling looks gorgeous too!Starbucks CoffeeThe Body ShopNo Smoking for only Foreigners
U can see Kuwaiti smoking around but no one stops them!I prefer models wearing casual smart for a proper advertisement
but not Jubah Jubah lolxBASMATI RICE?
If U take this rice, Bus would DIE?
Produced by India? or Product of India?Very NICE? erhm..
Lame brand I would say lolxAlmost everyone in Kuwait looks alike
Sharp feature, Tall, Big build
Strong? In wat sense? lolxThis is an Egyptian
He knows how to speak Bahasa Malaysia
Awesome!Haluuuuu~ Wat R U doing?!
Get off Ur dirty butcher hand!Barbie Doll?
Kuwait Jubah Doll^^Faster faster
Give me back my change!
Kumar, filthy nutritious
Its believed to make a Man strong in somewhere
***** censored :pHe requested to take a pic with me
Feeling weird =.="
Don touch me pls!!Even though at nite
It is still hot
35 degree Celsius.. Kill me pls!Any Malaysian has something to say?
Go to Kuwait Barisan Nasional lolxEmpty Park with no one
Where is everyone?!A pretty complicated designed building
Love it!Like it alot! Look so class!Colours change! Just like our KL Tower :)Kuwait Apartment
The design is so unique
Well, I still don think I would like to own one :pTall buildings R every where
Believe me now?
& Lights R too strong!!Time to check out Kuwait Tower!We walked all the way to Kuwait Tower
Passed by Beach at niteSand is still Hot!
This beach is reali something :)Getting closer!Heart beat gets faster!Real close now!Welcome to Kuwait Tower!
It is not just a normal tower
It has a Restaurant, Hotel & Water Tank in it
Similar to KL Tower?This way This way!!Ready?! Get hooked on!Not quite sure is that 120meters from ground or 120th floor
High enough! U may even feel ears popI'm inside of it now!
Fantastic view!Its like a Golf Ball surface
**Blink Blink**
Am I dreaming?Best thing to do is to look at the whole Kuwait
& smoke! Kuwait from the leftTo the centerTo the right
Tat's it the whole Kuwait
Kinda small isnt it?
Tiny Land but filthy rich!!!!
Size does matter? Not reali :PI am amazed by everything I see with my very own eyesPerfect View!Ahh Forgot to introduce
This is the hotel I was staying
Holiday Inn Downtown KuwaitShanti was having her XXth birthday during this trip
She tried to keep a secret but Hotel Reception sent her a cake
Pecah Lubang lolx hahaLook I have a little Angel Light
Am I the angel of tonight?My God! Her angel light is stronger hahhaa!
Happy Birthday to U Shanti!
Wish ur business goes well!On the day coming back
Never failed still to camwhoreThanks to Holiday Inn Downtown
U know Y would we get such a cake from them?
We R the last group of MAS crew staying in Kuwait!
Thank God so so much!
Those who R interested to go to Kuwait?
Chance will be opened again next year summer season^^It is so OVER! But I like it~
Glamour nye!!!On this Sunset.. We R heading to Kuwait International Airport
I was feeling weird..
Kuwait.. I am gonna miss U so so muchLatif was complaining Y is his face only Half in the previous pic
Ok la Ok la.. I shoot again okie?!
Waaa.. Don even want to face my camera?
Putting on MH smile like so natural?! hahhaha!On the way back
KUL/KWI departs on 18th 1815hrs
Gonna arrive in KUL on 19th 07:45hrs
Total flight time 8hours & 30 mins
It was only 1 business class passenger
& 17 economy passenger
Very easy Job!!Zone D
No one seated thereAfter Service & Movie
Light goes off! Everyone is sleeping
Except me camwhore myself hhhahaa!Dawn is coming!
On the right corner, it is actually the MoonIt looks so beautiful
I find myself staring only the Sun Rise
& feel itchy all of a sudden
Itchy of wat?!
Of the Course! Camwhore all over again! :D

Silent thought
I actually took more than 300++ pics on this trip
I was so fucking excited to go for this "little long haul" flight
Trainer used to say..
Kuwaiti travels out from Kuwait to travel
Hardly to see outsiders travel to Kuwait unless is to look for a job
Yes it is true enough Kuwait Dinar has the most valuable bank note in the world
By all means, to get a chance to travel in Kuwait is wat an honor
& definitely a golden opportunity in Life

I am reali glad that I made it
Wide body in this flight flying over 10 years & it is their 1st time in Kuwait
Me? Just 7 months in this airlines.. I am so lucky^^
Thank you for the chance,
I truly grab the opportunity & experience Kuwait with all I can

Been there, Done that
No Regret :)