Friday, March 22, 2013

Hippo, in memorial

Hippo, a lovely male toy poodle,
The son of my partner, is missing
The bad thief broke into my house, cut off the front gate pad lock and took him away
This happened on 20th, around 4am plus
Hippo, are you doing okay there?
I miss you...

I actually got to know hippo when I started the relationship with my partner about 1 year and a half ago
Wasn't really close with hippo, until one fine day that my partner had to move from a terrace to a condo
Hippo was then placed in my house, spending his time with my the other two puppies Georgy and Yoyo
At first, he was practically moaning every night, making so much of noises
To be honest, I was quite irritated by hippo, though I understand how uncomfortable he felt in this whole new place
Time passed, about 1 or 2 months after that, I began to have more interactions with him
He is so cute! So adorable, but still... Very noisy and naughty!

Sooner I got even more comfortable with hippo, I take him to my bed
He would be there "manja-ing" while me playing iPad games
He knows how to dig into your arm and sorta begging you to sayang him
He knows the command of Sit! Hand! Left hand!
Around evening time, usually I'll take him out for jogging. This naughty hippo, like the other else, love sniffing around and pee everywhere as he pleased
As I call upon his name from a distance, he would run towards me, with full speed
Try to picture a fluffy toy poodle running, the body is like rabbit that small, running, his flappy ears are like flying, with his tongue flipping out, so cute..... He is so cute.....
A day like this jogging, follow by another day, days by days, I just love hippo so much..

Hippo quietly lying on me...

This is the only picture I have with hippo
I wish I could have taken more pictures with him..

When hippo was just 3 months old
How adorable.. *cry like hell....*
When this stealing thing happened
I was in Jakarta, I received a text from my sister around 8am
The beeping sound of whatsapp woke me up, which normally I didn't care much when I am asleep
That day morning, I felt something was not right, with my sleepy eyes, checking my whatsapp msg
I felt a knife stabbing directly into my heart, and the clear weather actually having lightning striking repeatedly,
Are you fucking serious?! Hippo is gone?!!!
Tears just spontaneously wet by eyes, I was still damn sleepy but the sad feeling just snapped like that
I was confused, what can I actually do?! I'm in Jakarta now for god sake!!!!! I want to go home!!!!!

After a while, I was able to contact my partner, he went crazy bcuz of hippo was missing
He cried n cried, sending me audio note, I was crying too... I want to go home.... I want to comfort my partner, I want to search for the missing Hippo!!!!
But I can't.. I was unable to do anything at that point

Finally I came home from flight,
This time.. No one barking, no one making noises
It was so quiet.. And my mama had already cleared hippo's dog house
This is so unacceptable..
I went upstairs, sat there smoking, thinking of hippo, eyes were wet again...

At night, my partner came over
I guess we were sorta pretended to be okay, until we got into my room at upstairs
We just hugged and cried like no body business
Tears wet our shirt, and it just won't stop, it was literally a crying out loud session
My partner was saying, the shirt that hippo was wearing, it was brand new and hippo only had a chance to wear once......
The shoes that hippo donning, my partner promised him to get hippo a new pair of shoes.... But he didn't have a chance
He kept saying how much he missed hippo, how much he loved him
That totally broke my heart, we were devastated, too sad to talk about anything else except hippo

That was me crying when I was in Jakarta

B, now that hippo is gone,
You are sad, of course you are,
He has been your son for 3 years plus
Every single tiny little thing about him, I'm sure you will not forget in your entire life
Mama said 有心人 frame 無心人
The bad thief must have been planning to steal hippo for quite sometimes, it's kinda an inevitable incident
It's kinda like an accident, no one can predict an accident
Don't cry too much liao k? You have been crying so hard for these 3 days...
Remember I told you about the fate?
Perhaps.. The fate of you two ends here, 緣分到此
We even talked about the 今生後世 輪迴
You have been such a good father of hippo for this 3 years plus, I'm sure in some points, you guys are gonna meet again
And then.. My partner was saying about the expensive dog foods and the luxuries thingy that hippo had been enjoying
He wonder how hippo is doing now with that bastard thief who took him away
Again he cried... Heart breaking..

Hippo, I miss you
But I must understand that the chances of getting you back are quite slim
I am only close with you for a few months, I'm already so much affected by your everything
I just want to say that I love you, truly
I hope that they caught you for a reason, perhaps is to breed with a female poodle
If that's the case, you are gonna have so many kids coming along
Whether or not you are coming back, I'm always ready to have a space for you to stay
If you hear me, please come home
And yes, don't worry, papa and daddy will do our best to find you
I don't know if you know how to take good care of urself or not but... please do.. Okay?

You win some, you lose some
The greater the pleasure, the harder the fall
It's okay to cry, it just shows how much you truly appreciate one's who used to exist in your life

And now.. Will you please help me?

If you feel me, feel the pain of me
Please help me to find Hippo too
I know the chances are slim but we won't give up
It will be great if you can help us too
Many thanks...

Hippo, please come home soon..
I love you..

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

Is Thing Gonna be Better?

Things seem pretty tense lately
Just a day ago, on 4th March, I bang into a Malay lady's Nissan Grand Livina from the back
*Bang!* Her rear bumper gone cracked, my heart? Cracked as hell too

The very first thing, I immediately got down from my vehicle
Greeted her "Hello Puan" and started to apologize for what happened
Reassured her that I will get things fixed, not to worry, just take my cell number
As I was going to work, practically going for flight, I can't miss my flight!
All I can do, was to settle this once I came back from my flight
Oh very well, she was acting real stuck-up, wanted to see many documents of mine
And nevertheless, wanted to see my flight trolley bag too! What a crazy woman
Not so crazy actually, I can imagine how frustrated she might feel, that's so normal
I gave her everything she wanted to see, and I proceeded to airport with my nervous heart
I felt bad, real bad, I didn't wish to get involved in a car accident, who wanted an accident to happen?!
Do you think that I am that crazy, purposely bang into your car and enjoy all the dramas that come along?
Anyway, I went for my flight as I should be

During my flight duty, which was supposed to be 11 hours 55 mins doing KUL/RGN/KUL/KUA/KUL
*** RGN = Yangon, Myanmar      KUA = Kuantan
Yes, now you know it is not so easy to be a flight attendant
Fly to Myanmar 2 hours 50, back from Myanmar and go to Kuantan 40 mins and back
Damn damn damn fucking tired!!!!!!!!!!!!!
There was a 2 hours transit in between, met a senior in the smoking lounge in KLIA
He was asking me, did I back stab him, commenting that he is lazy and being attitude problem
I was shocked, along the conversation, I found out.. Oooooohhhh
There was this useless fella, a 35 years old faggot, back stabbing me, telling off my secrets
This mother fucker 35 years old asshole, used to be a friend of mine
Since now that we are no longer a friend, he just broke all my gossips and secrets
Hmmm... Isn't this what a Tiger would face in this 2013 Snake year?
Mr. IA, you are such a scoundrel, and you are so small!!!!!!!
I know you have been spreading my name around, seriously, how childish you are!
Sigh, I have to let this go, I am never capable to deal with such a small person,
It's better to forgive and just move on
The best part, I just bang someone's car this morning and this happened in late noon?
How drama is that?! I must be a robot, I was totally numb.. I was not even angry

Crason ah Crason, perhaps I was born in such a life,
Too many rivals, too many enemy, too many small little tiny person,
The reason I wasn't feeling angry, simply bcuz I was just sad.....
The fact is, one misunderstanding leads to another, we couldn't be friend anymore,
All you do are to spread my name, tarnish my name with all your words
What are you trying to achieve? Some sort like exorcism? To cast me away?
Hmm... Do you really have to do that? I am sad... :(

Crason ah Crason, it has been like this, it is like forever
Everywhere I work, I face the same issue, 
From a waiter, to an account assistant, to a clerk, to an insurance agent, to a hotel reception, and now a flight attendant
Never failed, I have been facing this kind of shit
I think it has something to do with - I WANT TO BE MYSELF!
I love being straight forward, love to go straight to be point, trying to learn to be neutral
However, sooner later I turn out to be an AK47 bla bla bla just shoot out my point of view
Without knowing that I might have hurt someone
And also.... Sooner later, everything comes back to me, I am actually the one being wanted
But this year is different, Tiger is having a bad year
I gotta plan something! At least to protect myself!

Okay, now I plan
I shall not speak about whoever fault, even I have the chance
I shall not gossip about anyone
I will not argue, even if I am right
I will just zip my mouth, no matter how pressured I feel
I cannot be argumentative, just let it go!
I cannot defend myself, just keep my mouth shut
I know.... I know... If I ever open my mouth, things will be ugly
Okay........................ I just swallow everything, zip! 
And everything will be just fine.......... I just hope that the above can help :( 

For every smiling face, there must be a reason why it keeps you smiling
The only reason I could think of, I smile bcuz I have them in my heart
Family, Friends and my Love. 
This path might be difficult and hard, I will make it through
Love all of you. cheeeeeese 


Happy Valentine's Day!

I may have celebrated Valentine's day before with 2 different person,
But having to celebrate Valentine's day with the same person, it's my first time =)
Now I can really tell, everyone is learning everyday, regardless of his age
This year, I celebrated Valentine's day with him again, I am so lucky!!

There is only person that I will ever named him - The Best BF ever
And he totally deserves this title, that is you, my boy
Through all the upside down scenarios, he is always there for me, it is almost a year and a half
All the misunderstandings, sabotages from others, disaster moments
We walked through them one by one, with tears and strength in our hearts, 
I must say, it wasn't easy but we did it! 

I am so in love with this picture
We are wearing almost exactly the same, having a good time in Ming Garden hotel located in KK,
I do know how much you love to stay in a hotel ahahhahhaahha, that's funny actually
Btw, look at your arm, that's one fine piece to be chopped off for a great collection :p

This year, we decided to have a simple meal
Simple is the best, I always believe that
Many many will come, I just want to stick with you! :)

Love each day
Thank you......... from the bottom of my heart
I have seen the world through your eyes, nothing matters except the relationship we have
(Not forgetting Family and Friends though, hehe)
Allow me to save some money, will get you a real nice present next year my darling!
For now, let's love each day, always we do :)

Gong Hei Fatt Choy!!!

If you notice, I finally fix the music player widget
Phew, it wasn't running for a quite while, I didn't even know about it
Apparently, the one that I had been using Mixpod player is now closed down!
Through a little trial and error, I found this MP3 Player Widget
Successfully get my mp3 playing, however, only one song is allowed, oops!
Well, a blog without a sad song playing along, what it is a blog then? Hehe

Throwback to month of January, around 19th-22nd some dates around that time,
I was cursing, what the hell is my beloved company, the rostering department doing,
There was once a black and white saying that they will TRY to publish a roster 10 days before end of each month
THEY - WILL - TRY - oh yeah, I forgot the WILL and TRY
Eventually, February roster was published right after the whole company staff received their pay on the date of 23rd January!!!! Gosh, how late was that!
That was only the tip I encountered, not knowing it was actually a whole big fat iceberg at the bottom of the sea
Upon opening the slow portal, to check my roster, heart beating fast
GOD please give me day off on CNY! I wanna go back hometown!!!
YAY! I am off at least on 9-10th, the eve of CNY and the first day!
Wait...........!! WTH!! From 1-16th itself, I am having standby for 10 days!?!?!!?!?!?
Yes, it was damn real, 1-16th except day off, I was on standby for 10 days
And literally, I am only rostered to work for 15 days
One "good" thing to be a flight attendant, NO FLY NO ALLOWANCE
So, needless to say how much I was about to earn in February
That was so frustrating, I drove to office, to check with a few person in charge
Only to realize, the common answer would be "I can't help you" "Roster is out, I can't do anything" bla bla bla...
I couldn't even sleep well for 2 nights at least, kept thinking how to improve my roster, dreamed about me being called up to some good flights, dreamed about many many nonsense things

It wasn't over yet
On 26th Jan, I was about to do my 4 days trip
First night KK, 2nd night Taipei, 3rd night Bangkok
Just a call from office, everything changed!
It became, first night Bangkok, 2nd night Labuan, then go home, the last day standby at home
Oh man, 3 days ago, I was already shocked to see my February roster like shit
After 3 days, another one more drama?!?!?! Man.. I was so sad... :(
I was thinking to quit my job already, I mean, I am just a staff in this company
Especially my position, just another flight attendant,
If I resign, my company shall just advertise in any newspaper "Who wants to be a flight attendant?"
Another 1000 wannabes will come over for interview
Me? I am nothing to my company, they don't appreciate us at all
That makes me feel powerless... I cried eventually, had been holding up, broke down finally
After a while I was okay, life goes on, it's okay to cry, I usually tell myself this

And so, CNY was coming as the time goes by, and I was very very excited
Even the boarding musics were CNY songs! How thrilled!
After my flight on 9th, I drove all the way back to my lovely hometown - Malim Nawar, Perak
A long drive, tired + hungry
The very first thing, of course!!!! Red shirt!!!

My lovely hometown, so many relatives of mine are still living there
Some moved to KL, some in JB, some in Kedah all came back for CNY
Eat Eat Eat and Eat! Just spending time together, chatting and having a great time
I was smiling from the bottom of my heart,
Sniffing the ultra natural air in my hometown, telling myself how lucky am I to be a part of this family,
And whatever shit that happened right before this, all gone with winds,
To be able to be at hometown during CNY is a blessing, I am okay to face all kinds of obstacles :)

Back to KL, I have my Evon and Elroy,
This year CNY was unlike last year, but that's okay, everyone was busy with something,
I am glad that you guys came over still, Lou Shang with my family,
We gambled a little, and went for Bak Kut Teh too,
Thank you my dear friends, I love you all!

Hahahhaha!!! My favourite picture of this year CNY
My lovely grandmother, I call her Ah Ma =)
When I arrived at the door step, she came straight to me and hugged me,
Even kissed me on my cheek, I was embarrassed but I thought it was really really sweet
Thank you my love Ah Ma, and thank you for always telling me that you love me the most among all,
I remember how I spent my old days in my hometown and how I cried when I had to go back to KL,
When Ah Ma firstly got to know how to text a sms, she texted me first,
"啊聪,我是啊麽,我想念你,你有想啊麽吗?"  OMG!!! I just want to cry now 
I am so sorry Ah Ma, I know I have never been calling you for a long time,
I am fine here Ah Ma, it's just I am feeling embarrassed to express my love towards you,
But I will never ever forget how you love me, and I will just buy you the Olay anti-aging essence that you like,
It is one of the way I show my love to you, hope you understand your grandson here not so keen on expressing love to everyone
Ah Ma, I Love You!!!

Heard that this Snake year, we, the Tiger aren't not doing so well,
Hmmm... It does bother me a little, but one shall not be having negative thoughts,
Let's live life to the max! Bring joys to everyone's life, and our life will be easier,
A kiss to all of you! Muackz!!! Gong Hei Fatt Choy, a belated one :)