How are you?
I wonder why, it's just a simple greetings, and this is rather difficult for both of us to even say it to each other..
We say it to strangers, on social media
Facebook, Tinder, Instagram
And we just don't seem to ask each other now
So much so that I hate to admit
This is really happening and we are both going through this
And this is what we all hate to experience
- The Breakup -
Do you know mama no longer put 2 blankets on our bed?
I came home and saw this
Fefe is all alone now, Fefe is not alive without you
I do talk to him sometimes still
It's just feel weird to talk to Fefe now without you
Fefe is lonely, so am I..
Do you know, I went back to waterfall in my hometown
Evon, Elroy and me, just a 2 days 1 night trip anyway
We talked, we reminisced, we laughed and we sighed too
There's pictures, 5 of us, all so lovely, absence of Vincent
Who's left? Though Vincent has married Evon
The rest of us, story has altered, from some point
Do you know that Facebook keeps reminding me
"On this day" ya.... shut up!
Photos from past, kept showing up
Most of the time, I was too scared to look at them
I was scared I will cry, I will not be able to forget about you
Hey.. why not I face the fact?
I will never be able to forget about you..
That's the last picture I have you in my camera roll
Your ever hairy feet, the bangle I bought you
That's the last of you in my iPhone
If my brain can be a projector
I would present you to the world
Hey.. this man! He was the best boyfriend in the world!
Hehe.. I was so lucky, ain't I?
And that's the last of us together
Just like how we have predicted
We will never be friend again if we were ever broke up
Even that's a 5 years relationship
Even we hold hands through ups and downs
Even we cried and hugged through every storm
Even we have been through so much and so much
Even we thought we will be together forever
Even we have never thought of this breakup coming
Even we have faith and trust and the confidence
Even so and so..
Even so.. we couldn't have fought the fate
To see them reunited again is like a dream now
Just like the thunder storm this evening
Reminds me of you who was so scared of thunder howling
Reminds me of how vulnerable you can be
Reminds me of how you used to hug me and acting like a crybaby
Reminds me of the innocent you
Reminds me of the kindest you
Reminds me of the person who loves me as Crason
Aunty, forgive me for visiting you only a few times in years
Just so you know, you have my full respect like an in law
And my apology, I only got you one bird nest drink in years
I may no longer visit you in the rest of my life
And I truly appreciate your kind words that evening
And your preparation for the dinner that evening
I wish I could hug you and tell you that
I share your same feeling!
We love the same boy in this world..
How I wish..
Hey boy, do you know I went back to pay back my wish
Just so you know, I could cry all over again
You called to tell me how you prayed for mum and me
Prayed for my health and my career and you..
Involuntary teared over phone..
Thank you.. kindly..
And thank you too..
For saying that I'm a 西炒飯+隻蛋
I'm sorry for asking you to help trimming my hair
For saving that 18rm.. pathetic amount I know..
I can't help to fall in love again and again..
The confident you after trimming my hair and said
"Wow.. I'm impressed by myself too! I can be a barber!"
I will never see this smile again..
The sweetest side of you..
Do you know I still keep thinking about your sweet smile?
You may not know, I didn't delete any single picture of us
Maybe you should know, I love you whole heartedly
I will bend so low, and put myself so tiny
To apologize any mistake I've ever made in this 5 years
Whatever ups and downs, it's has come to and end
Waived goodbye and we are now all on our own
Exploring the world, like there's so much of uncertainty
Endless hope and endless despair too
Just depending on how we see things, aye?
My favorite picture of all times
That's you.. the one who sayang me so much
The loveliest BF ever
The one who accepted me for who I was
The one who loved and cried for me
The one who would die for me
The one who care for my stomach and my well being
The one who used to love me
The one and the only one who cannot be replaced
The my only one 5 years relationship BF
The one and the one was you
"Was" is a very strong word
Especially to describe someone's past
And that was you..
And for all the above..
I thank you..
Thank you once again for accepting me for who I am
Thank you once again for loving me and crying for me
Thank you once again to die for me
Thank you once again to care for my stomach
Thank you once again to care for my well being
Thank you once again for loving me
Thank you once again for be being irreplaceable
Thank you once again for the precious 5 years relationship
Thank you.. thank you..
And that's the limit of my own tears can handle..
I have to stop now..
Let's end this topic and we will all be happy isn't it?
Thank you for everything
And I must move on now
The humor you..
The funny you..
The bitchy you..
The lovely you..
The caring you..
The whole you..
Why am I still crying...?
Goodbye.. wish you could feel my hug once again..
Take care ya..
Everyone! Let's cry once again..
because I just can't stop crying for now..